Bubbly Thoughts

Sitting in my bed after the kids went to sleep. I had a quick look around the room. Nothing was different, but everything has changed. It's a mixture of feelings. The room feels bigger, more comfortable, and quieter, yet it also gives a pinch of bitterness and sorrow. Holding my cup of tea in my hands so tight trying to feel warm, I looked at the door. I was able to imagine him coming in with his laptop; I was able to feel his presence. I even smelled his perfume. It's weird how the mind is able to register all these things. And how they reappear when you least expect them to. I had a sip of my tea, then I stared at the walls for a minute. I was trying to test myself. I wanted to see if I’m hurt. I haven't had any emotional breakdown since the divorce, and I just don't think it's right. Tried to remember a good moment. Because the end was ugly, it took me a while to think of one. Then I remembered the first time we went out together. It was on an autumn day.

Sitting in a coffee shop on a cold winter day, sipping hot chocolate... watching people passing by the window.. all grasping their jackets so tight as if they are scared to lose them.. watching their faces.. A handsome young boy with his backpack and worn off jeans.. his red sweatshirt and black woollen hat.. running to catch the bus.. An old lady walking her dog.. how happy her dog is! jumping and fooling around.. A cute little girl holding her mom's hand with her bunny-like gloves.. how her mom's eyes glow while she talks to her.. how the girl's face lit up when her mom gave an approving smile.. Two boys and one girl standing at the next corner.. I smiled.. I can see one of the boys admiring the girl while she is not watching.. his eyes are sinking in hers.. then I saw him looking at her hair when the wind blew it.. How lucky.. he is still able to have that childish love.. where your heart pounds so hard when you are together.. where you become breathless if someo

Hi all... Well I have created this blog to share my "bubbly" thoughts with people, instead of sharing them with myself. This way, I can have comments and feedback from you.. and at the same time, I will have a saved copy of my so called "bubbly" thoughts, instead of wasting them in thin air.. :) so.. here we go!